Monday, 20 June 2016

Fushi // Cold Pressed Organic Jojoba Oil

Cold Pressed
Smooth as silk and a dream to use
My ultimate favourite, never be without it, don't leave me ever, face, body, hair, beauty oil!I'm looking at you Fushi Jojoba Oil!

Right, lets be honest you can buy Jojoba Oil (Simmondsia californica) from a lot of different companies, in a variety of oil quality and varying price points. As an oil Jojoba is my go to. It does irritate my eyes and is able to get ride of all my eye make up. Its a great frizz tamer and works really well as a shaving oil. And, of course as a standard moisturiser. It is so easily absorbed into the skin. I do like my Rosehip for the face but when in doubt, I stick with Jojoba. It is rich in Vitamin E and helps to prevent and treat fine lines, it also offers enough slip to give a lovely face massage - which I have been practicing a lot lately.

For £14.50 Fushi gives you 100ml of the silkiest Jojoba oil I have ever used. I'm near to the end of my bottle and because it's such a fab multi-tasker I will be allowing myself to repurchase it, even though I am still unemployed. It was keep me going in many areas or my beauty and skin care regime.

To me it has become an essential, as I'm sure it has to many others. Sure you can invest in other oils and I have tried a few. However I always go back to Jojoba oil. It can do no wrong in my eyes. It's also a great oil to start experimenting with if you are a newbie to green beauty and a worthwhile investment if you are interested in downsizing your beauty stash to a more minimal collection - which I am currently in the process of doing.

Does anyone else love Jojoba as much as do? How do you use yours?
Do you like keeping is simple?
What is always in you stash and you cant bear to run out of it?

Wednesday, 8 June 2016

Have Hope. Be Brave. Live Life.

Being completely honest I am a broken record.
You may decide to play me and it seems to be going alright. The beat picks up, you are enjoying the melody and then it skips a beat and your heart stops. The record sounds all wrong and it jumps and scratches. You decide not to try and play it for a while because you don't like what you hear. But you miss the melody, you want to feel the beat, so you try again and again. But the record jumps back to the shit bits. The record is damaged, it can't be repaired.

It's time to buy a new one. You can't exactly throw the old one away, it will forever be part of your collection. You will give in to the emotional pull at times when you want to dust off the record cover and have a look at it. Intently examining the vinyl for the damage you always hear. But you can't see it and no one else will be able to see it. They might dismiss it, but you know it is there.

Sometimes it is best to not play it for anyone else, they are fed up of hearing the needle skip a beat, the hate hearing it on repeat. And after a while you become fed up of it to. So for nostalgia's you keep the record in your collection. It's hard to stop playing it over and over but you have to make a choice. You have the option to get a new one and it is totally up to you.

I have been a proverbial broken record for well over eight months. I say I'm okay and I'm not. I feel no one understands me but I hate having to try and explain it to them. I like to stay honest but I feel like when I am some of those asking me don't really want to hear it. So I Just don't tell them.
I hate having to remind people of what has happened, but sometimes it feels like I have to. I need to, to explain how and why I feel how I do. It's a cycle that I don't like to get it, so I often avoid it.

No one wants to hear a broken record.
As time moves on for others, they don't like hearing what they feel like is old news. Even if it is still present for you. It's a hard choice to make and often difficult to accept.

There comes a time when you have to;

Have hope
Be Brave
Live Life.

I recently passed one year since my diagnosis. And I'm not going to lie the run up to it has been hard. It was recently explained to me that commonly, the first anniversary of anything is big and often affects an individual emotionally and mentally. Especially when it comes to grief and trauma. I really appreciated that I wasn't being told not to worry or having someone tell me that it happened a long time ago.
It was just an explanation that it's normal.

Sometimes I get stuck in the past and that leads me to worry about the future. What I have recently been trying to do is think of right now. What can I do right now.
It makes it a lot easier to deal with. I know it will be hard and there will be down moments, but I am going to be making a massive effort to move on and get back to feeling well again.

So what I'm going to do right now is this
Drink a green tea
Have Hope
Eat some turmeric
Be Brave
Wear my favourite perfume
Live Life

Thursday, 19 May 2016

When you have to stick to your guns

Sticking to your guns is essentially the same as following your own intuition.

It also leads on from that first thought that pushed you along the way to making a change. Sticking to your guns after making a decision that was born from intuition can be really hard.
Feelings and emotions are invisible, especially if you keep them locked up inside.
That is another thing all together, but relevant here when it is hard to convey to someone how you are feeling. Sometimes other people, no matter how close they are to you, cannot grasp the emotions you are dealing with. They are invisible to those around you.

Sticking to your guns takes inner strength and for you to start understanding your own self worth. First and fore most you must value yourself.
Value yourself enough to do what is truly best for you.

When do we stop doing what is expected of us and what we are being told to do? Even when we know that path is not right, that decision being made on our behalf, has none of our thought in it at all. It is not what is best for you.

In today's society a job is integral, money is essential (you don't need a lot but you do need some to get by) and your social standing is linked to what you do in your 9-5. For the past 7 and half years I have worked full time in varied roles. In those roles I have always found it hard to maintain a good work life balance.
That is what I want now.
That is what I am sticking to my guns for.

Here's the story;

I have been taking tamoxifen for ten months now. The drug inhibits my oestrogen from allowing oestrogen receptor cells from feeding cancer cells that might want to grow again. So I take it, reluctantly. It causes you to gain weight really easily and it is extremely hard to loose (not just my thoughts, my cancer nurse confirmed this). hot flushes, night sweats and mood swings are common and I have been experiencing horrendous menstrual cycles. I just generally feeling like I'm 80, the medication has left me feeling tired every single day.

Tamoxifen, causes fatigue and joint pain.
Exercise helps reduce fatigue.
Exercise now hurts my joints and it takes me ages to recover from even 15 minutes exercise.
Exercise would allow me to have better health and loose weight.
Tamoxifen makes me feel shit, tried and unmotivated.

I'm guessing that you can already see that I can easily get in a bad cycle or not doing anything, purely because of the side effects. Even though I know how to help myself. I find it really hard to do ......just being completely honest.

I want to work. But I want it to be part time. Part time will mean that I can exercise and have time to recuperate. A part time job will mean that I have time to cook healthy whole food focused meals. Part time with give me the work life balance that I long for.

At the beginning of May I decided that it was time to start properly looking for a job. That job would be part time, that was my only requirement. I applied for a role that was part time and matched my skill set. The role happened to be advertised through a recruitment agency, so when the agency asked me to visit them, I happily agreed and looked forward to the possibility of a new job.

At the agency they really pushed for me to apply for a full time role at a large corporate company. Yes the pay was very good and it was a temp contract. Perfect. I could work full time for a bit.

At the interview it became apparent that the company were looking for someone who was willing to work on a temp contract but would stay if it were to become permanent after 3 months time. I honestly couldn't work there knowing that they would be hoping for me to be permanent, training me and then I would leave because I had always known that I would.

The company had good benefits, a fantastic reputation in it's field, but was also extremely strict and verging on archaic on what a woman should wear in an office environment. That being, a dress. No exceptions. This is a hell no for me. I only wear dresses at weddings or when on a very hot holiday. I do not feel myself in them and i don't like that in 2016 a grown woman is being told that she much wear a dress at all times. It's ridiculous.  This might seem petty to some. I don't mind wearing a uniform, but I do have my limits. And being told that I must wear a dress everyday is mine. I never felt that I was corporate worker any way. It should be acceptable to wear trousers, whatever gender. I was also be pushed into something that I had adamantly said I didn't want.

So I retracted my application.

It felt good sticking to my guns, even in this economy when some would say that you cant turn down a job. You must have a job. work. work. work.

But for what?

Even thought it is scary.
Even though I have not found a job yet
Even though I have no idea what i'm doing

At least I know that i finally doing something for my own benefit. Not to please anyone elses expectations or worry about the opinions of other's. This is to make sure that I have create a sustainable work life balance that works well for me, not just working for the benefit of someone else.

Here's to sticking to your guns.
Even if you have no idea where it will lead you!

Tuesday, 17 May 2016

Angela Langford // Angel Eyes Nourishing Eye Oil

This beautiful piece of eye rejuvenating wonderfullness was gifted to me by Angela Langford herself. We had a quick discussion about my eye needs and that I had been on the look out for a product with a roller ball applicator. I was looking for something that would hydrate and help to reduce my dark circles.

Angela suggested her Angel Eyes nourishing Eye Oil, and I am so glad that she did!

This has worked wonders for my dark under eye circles, they are not completely gone but I have noticed that they have reduced in their purple tone. It feels extremely refreshing to use due to the cucumber oil it's nourishing formula which also contains rosehip oil and argan oil. The oils texture is really light and settles really well into my skin. It has not caused any inflammation or puffiness. I do like to occasionally put on a cream textured eye treatment over the top of the oil when my under eyes are feeling particaularily dry. As we get into spring, I have not had to this as much and I think this is just down to preference.

I love applying this day and night, the roller ball action when applying makes it quick, fun and easy, it's also a plus that you don't have to put your fingers in the oil to apply it! The scent is so light and fresh with a hint of cucumber that is not over powering and fades a while after application.

The oil sinks into the under eye area quickly and I have found it to be a good base for my concealer, keeping it looking fresh throughout the day. For £19.50 you get 10mls of oil, I have been using this day and night since December last year and I have just reached the half way point. I will be repurchasing this as soon as I near running out it. In my opinion it is too good to be with out it.

Has this product given me angel eyes? I don't know about that, but it is certainly heavenly to use! (sorry, I couldn't help it!)

Here is what they say:

"Suitable for all but the most sensitive of skins, this is your recipe to treat the delicate skin around your beautiful eyes."

Cooling cucumber is carefully blended with argan & rosehip to create a specialist eye oil that repairs & smooths the delicate skin around your eyes.
Gently massage the roller ball around your eye area once or twice to dispense the right amount of oil.
You can use this in the morning & again at night.
Do not use this product if you feel you may be allergic to any of the ingredients. Store this oil out of direct light & in a cool place to prolong its shelf life.

Cucumber is rich in omega 6 essential fatty acids (linoleum acid), oleic acid, palmitic acid, minerals (including potassium & silica), tocopherols & phytosterols. It can help stimulate cell regeneration & retains moisture in the skin. It is also a well-known remedy to help reduce dark under eye circles & skin pigmentations - it softens & hydrates the skin & is ideal for dry, sensitive & mature skin types.
Argan is nourishing & can help strengthen skin’s elasticity. Rosehip is an amazingly versatile oil – healing, calming, skin strengthening & mild & gentle. Safflower (also known as thistle) contains really high levels of skin loving omega 6 & it is very nourishing & quickly & easily absorbed into the skin.

cucumis sativus oil (cucumber oil), argania spinosa kernel oil* (argan oil), rosa rubginosa seed oil* (rosehip oil), carthamus tinctorius seed oil* (safflower oil, also known as thistle), tocopherol (natural vitamin e), citrus limon peel oil* (lemon essential oil), pelargonium graveolens leaf oil* (rose geranium essential oil), cymbopogon martinii oil* (palmarosa essential oil).
From essential oils: d-limonene, linalol, citronellol, geraniol, citral, farnesol.
*These ingredients are organic at source.
Contains 100% natural ingredients, 56% of which are organic at source.

So now that I declared my love for this products, have you got any loves from Angela's collection to share with me? I'd love to know!