Tuesday, 2 June 2015

Live or Die

Disclaimer: May cause triggers

What would you do if you thought you would die.
Would you let feelings of impending doom set in? Would you avoid it? Deny it?
Maybe, it's a natural instinct.
But would you let those feelings consume you, until there is nothing of you left?

I hope not.
What would you do if you were going to die?
I hope,

You would Live.

Live it up to the max.

Whether that means raving in Ibiza, going on that long lusted after retreat in Bali, becoming a master baker or just making sure you see more of your friends and family. Go forward with new "live it to the max" intentions.

It sounds morbid. There is no avoiding it.
We are all going to die.
Pop our clogs.
See those pearly gates (if you are that way inclined)
or (and I like this one best) be pushing daisies.
None of us are going to like the idea, but at some point, our own timeline will end.

I know these words may trigger bad memories and worry, I just hope you don't find them insensitive.

I hope you take something out of the stoic thought;
"what would you do today, if you died tomorrow?"
and think, life is definitely short. We are very unlikely to live to 100, so there's already a "life limit". Make the most of it today. Tomorrow is still unknown! Some of us may live to 90, 80, 70.
Some of us in this world will die young.

But those years, how ever many is a whole life. No matter how many or few, those years will still form a persons whole life. Obviously, you may become unwell in later years, old age does that and it will limit what you can do, maybe do that sky drive now and not on your 70th birthday!. But what if you could truly live until you die? It doesn't have to be amazingly adventurous, just really, truly live by your own rules.

Because if you don't, it may as well be as simple as,
live or die.
If you aren't trying to live then you are just waiting to die. Blunt but true.

Take YOUR life in your hands and craft it into exactly what you want. Don't delay.
Don't give a shit about what others think. Remember that you are here to live life your way. However you want to live it (without being a criminal or a bully, please. We like good morals round these parts) just bloody well make sure you enjoy life.

Have that cake
Wear that funky jacket no one else likes
Dye your hair if you have been wanting to for ages
Sky drive or just get well into gardening, whatever.
Change jobs if you have been thinking about for 3 years and it's driving you insane.
Do it already!

Your life is precious because you will only have it once. It is exquisitely rare because you are so completely unique. We will all share similar experiences but essentially your life will never be lived again. No one will ever be able to replicate how you experience your situations, how you deal with your emotions and how you think your own thoughts. They can copy you, but their experience will be theirs and be entirely different.

If you have been letting the days pass by, if you have been sitting under that duvet and not even watching Netflix while doing it, then you are wasting your time! At least, AT LEAST go get some popcorn and get a TV series up on that screen! Veg out and enjoy some time with your self, read a book, listen to music.

But if you are avoiding, then please stop. Believe me, I know it's hard but you have to push yourself. Ask one true friend for help, if you are lonely see if they want to hang out, go for a walk. Invest your time in yourself and loved ones around you.

I used to take A LOT of long naps because I seriously couldn't be arsed and my excuse was this: I wont be able to nap if I ever have children, so I may as well nap now and relish it. I was just kidding myself, I was actually feeling fed up and needed an excuse to avoid my life. I snapped out of it.
That was totally stupid and unkind to my 29 years on this planet.  I have a good life. So know I own it and treat it like a precious gem. I take a step back and look in awe at all of it's wonder.

I now only nap when I need to. A little power nap. I still and always will love my duvet.

Don't avoid life. You will never get those hours back.



  1. Very true. I think my main problem is that I worry that in grabbing life by the horns I might shorten it - ie. what if I do the sky dive and my parachute doesn't work?? However I try to put that voice aside whenever I can and just frickin' do it. :D xx

    1. What if will always me a worry! If you dont want to literally jump off a plane. All though, i'd hope the sky drive instructor would release the parachute for you! Grab it my the horns Hephzibah! x