Wednesday, 17 June 2015

waiting

So perhaps I spoke too soon.

I had waited, but maybe not long enough to write about my diagnosis. Alas, I had more in store. The MRI picked up and confirmed that the cancer in the left breast seems to be contained and has not spread to my lymph nodes (yay).

However, the MRI also picked up a mass of what looks to be precancerous cells in my right breast. Funnily enough, in a similar area and size as the lump in my left one. So I guess at least I'm symmetrical (funny, only when I say it).

So I await more tests, I had to have 3 biopsies on my poor right boob and will find out soon if they think it is cancer or not. From there, I will have to decide what treatment to have, I will also have to wait for my genetic test results to make a full on, I've got all the facts I could have, decision.

I feel like I'm swimming up shit creek right now. With out a paddle, map, compass or boat! NICE!

I thought I had gotten over the not knowing part, I wanted to be past the feeling weak stage. Which is when I wrote about my diagnosis. I felt strong and defiant against the cancer in one of my breasts. Two breasts, really is twice the worry. For me at least.

I am still remaining as up beat as possible, I am still going to work, still seeing friends, still being me.

It just seems that during what was becoming the year of my self acceptance, in body and in mind. Has become a year that will be consumed by overcoming cancer and recovery.

I had so much planned for my 29th year and this was not it. But I am not letting it take over everything,

Mark my words.

I will have a plan! Whenever your direction changes. Whenever you feel like you have lost your path. It's time to re-acess things. You can still make it to your destination. You are just going to have to take another route!
    

3 comments:

  1. Liz, I don't know what to say right now to comfort you but we all have your back and if you need anything you make sure you get in touch xx I know you are a tough cookie you can get through this.

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  2. Dearest Liz, you have my empathy, sympathy and support. I am right there with you on our voyage together up shit creek but we WILL come back down it again because our boats have F U Cancer painted in big bold letters down the side! I know you have the strength to come through this and like Sarah said, we all have your back. Much love xxx

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  3. Dearest Liz, you have my empathy, sympathy and support. I am right there with you on our voyage together up shit creek but we WILL come back down it again because our boats have F U Cancer painted in big bold letters down the side! I know you have the strength to come through this and like Sarah said, we all have your back. Much love xxx

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