Tuesday, 11 August 2015

Five days post surgery

All I can say is this, when you are told to just rest. Resting is boring. But I need it. Sometimes we all need to take a step back and make ourselves have some epic relaxation time.

On the 6th of August 2015 I had my first ever operation. It was four and half hours long. I woke up with a new scar, a drain coming out of me and a slightly smaller, but not that ugly left boob. I was able to have some breast recon after my lump was removed.

If some way, shape or form this operation has saved my life. I find out next week if I will need another operation, if I will need chemo and if there where any other cancerous cells found around the lump. But for now, I cant help but let myself think that right now, this could be the worst it gets. If it does get worse, if I get news that my prognosis has changed and that I will need more treatment, I will find a way to deal with it. But, for now that is a hurdle i'll have to jump come Monday. For now, I am resting and giving myself time to heal.

I have been watching back to back episodes of Happy Endings!- LOVE IT
Calling my besties,
Taking naps
Meditating
Reading lots of magazines
And just,

Accepting.

Accepting that this has happened. Accepting that it is shit. Accepting that yes, I am scared. But I have also accepted that I am now in need of creating a new normal. Liz 2.0 is currently under construction.

Accepting change is the only way that I will be able to move forward. I have a feeling Liz 2.0 is going to kick some serious ass! 


4 comments:

  1. Wishing you a speedy recovery and sending you love x

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  2. I've been reading all your posts on this but not commented as I don't really know what to say. I know we don't really know eachother but please know that I am sending you all my love and positive thoughts. Xx

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  3. Sending you my love and hugs xx

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  4. This is the first time that I've found your blog (which is lovely), but just wanted to wish you a really speedy recovery. x

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