Tuesday, 19 April 2016

Stop Being A Dick

Its truly amazing how restorative a face mask time out that leads to an epiphany can be.
As you may be able to tell from my absence in blogging, I have been down in the dumps. I have not been wanting to write any heartfelt posts because I didn't want to be constantly repeating myself being all woe is me.

But for about 3 weeks I have been. I can tell you this, it was getting to the point where I was annoying myself.

After a very honest chat with my chum Amber (she is very cool, goo check her out), she got my literally off my feet through the power of the internet and got me exercising! Amazing!
I felt so much better for it. I had been eating relatively well, but exercises had fallen off the schedule, to being non-existent. 

So while I applied my face mask, (it was a clay one by the way) I realised that I had not been putting any effort to regularly put on a face mask for the past couple of months. I had not been putting any effort into myself, for myself. I wasn't enjoying spending time with myself, treating myself well. I was just constantly thinking of the crap that life brings and not the good bits, not at all, what so ever. I had stopped taking care of myself.

Now this may not sound like a big deal, but there was a time where I had a solid routine of face mask application and bloody enjoyed that spa time in my own home, my own piece of luxury. I loved the effects and how it made me feel.

So as I put on the clay face mask and felt it tingle on my face, I looked at myself in mirror and said to my self;

Stop being a dick.
Yes, you have been through a lot
But you are still here
Yes, the changes you made didn't work out
But, at least you know yourself well to know when they are not working
Yes you have been feeling down
But, you have not been putting much effort in these past few weeks.
Be Thankful for what you have
Be Grateful for the opportunity
Be Kind to yourself!
Stop being a dick.

What I'm trying to say is, while I know not everyone is going to want to know when I'm having a bad day. I also feel that it is important to be honest. I get caught up the in perpetual cycle of having to show off your best side and only show life's good bits. So when I am having a bad day, I choose not to post and that's not showing how multifaceted our lives can be.
Sometimes you have to show the bad bits, to understand where the good bits are coming from. It's, not all green smoothies, Tea and avo egg on toast round here. Sometimes its Tea, too much toast and butter with a side of regret.

But that's okay, that's life.
I personally believe that wellness is understanding that life can not be perfect. 
There is too much going on at any one time for it to be that way.

What you can do is find what makes you feel good, even when you are having a shit day. Find what helps you get through it.
Even if it is as simple as remembering to put a face mask on.